My my what a week! Seems the closer i get to graduation the harder it gets or maybe its just the anticipation from all the homework my teachers have been dishing out. Today was a good day of a pretty sad week (but not fully). I finally got to do something i have been wanting to do since my freshman year (and missed last year for unknown circumstances), i finally gave blood. Maybe that seems small to you but i was just so happy that i had finally done something about my desire and avid outlook towards giving blood. And when i think back it reminds me a lot about what I've been studying this week in my bible. God really has been enforcing Proverbs but this week the focus has been in Psalms...Psalms 119. He has been opening my eyes to the power of reading his word firstly, and also the way i should (as a Christian) go about reading it. I can blame laziness all day long but when it boils right down when i am standing before God one day he won't say "you have some rain checks for your tired and lazy days." Besides my outlook (no more than ever too) has been the fact that when i die then i will get my true rest but for now this is a race. And, ..."The race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong, nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant or favor to the learned; but time and chance happen to them all." (Ecc. 9:11). Concerning Psalm 119 each scripture speaks new revelation to me and stirs my spirit to yearn for more, My focus in this blog is Psalm 119:2 Blessed are they who keep his statutes and seek him with all their heart.When we truely love God we seek him with all we have. The word seek there is to run after diligently go after; in fact from dictionary.com it gives these following meanings: 1. to go in search or quest of,2. to try to find or discover by searching or questioning,etc. All pointing to the central theme that seeking God is not just "oh God i need you (right now in my time of distress) make everything better...please i need money for this that....God i need this" no! It's willingly going to him everyday and making the choice to run after him with everything we have. Not worrying about the hottest guy who seems to just now be noticing us. Or the cute girl who seems to wink your way. Not even for the distractions that seem to always approach right when your ready to have your time alone with God. If what our heart beats for is God and God alone then we must make him top priority. One of my favorite scriptures is found in Revelation 3:15-16;I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth. It keeps the constant reminder in me that God is NOT PLAYING GAMES!!! We either are hot or cold, and what he told me is this: We must make up in our own mind(s) whether to go after him with everything i have or just walk away...Believe it or not time is not getting any shorter its winding up and the Lord WILL return soon...What would you rather be like, the 5 wise virgins or the 5 foolish...in today's lingo: playing around (wishy washy) or truly seeking God in his will,what's your final choice?