Hello World (or at least some of it),
I’ve decided to start a blog on-line here on WordPress…not to be a critic and spill what i think is so screwy with the world but more so to project a solemn opinion and the viewpoint of someone who is really of the least bit important or superior to anyone. I merely consider my self a follower of Christ, seeking to have a relationship with the only person who has fully ever understood me and quite frankly the only one who will. (Trust i barely understand myself). But unto a lengthier note. Today is my first blog of hopefully many many many more to come in the near yet far future! I’m so excited it is my senior year and truly without God and the loving patience of family and near and dear friends i wouldn’t have made it far. Honestly, i knew this day would come but i didn’t know it’d come quite so fast…..if you get my drift jaja (Sorry, Dominican habit picked up bare with me). Today seemed to go by a little quicker and yet smoother than yesterday did but that is history as far as i am concerned. I’ve really got a troubling issue pressing on my heart though ever since Sunday night. You see i watched this show on National Geographic called “LA gang wars” and to much of my own surprise i could only watch through my blurred vision (specially half way through towards the end). Why it troubled me so? I don’t really know but it hasn’t left me at all. I mean i am realizing just how much of a selfish person and egotistical person i truly am at the root of my heart. It seems within our society all we care about in the end is making life good for us when God made it clear that well we are firstly our brothers keeper unlike Cain who didn’t care at all (Gen. 4:9). In a way maybe he was symbolic of the world soon to come, so concerned with who is looking at our $35 dollar bag supposedly passing for a $350 and so worried about getting dirt on our very shoes?!?! (Last i checked they were made for walking…on the ground) See last i checked God had the only real power in his hands and if anyone had a reason to only think of himself it would be him, right? And so (taking pressure off you) i began questioning myself and just boldly seeking God’s heart and finding that i do it a lot without thinking….it brought me to conviction and it’s shameful in my eyes but i feel if one person hears this maybe they too would realize that when you think about life is not at all about us. Loving God and loving people regardless of what we have at the end of the day just remember we came in with nothing and when we die regardless of belief we leave out with nothing. I remember when i was a little bit younger my older brother joking and saying when he died he’d like to be friend in oil so he could just eat himself (factious of course) but truly out of all the dead pharaohs in Egypt laid to rest and all the jewels and money and clothes etc. how many still have all that in there (exception of robbery and decay) all of them do. My heart is still aching from the program and it is more to the story i think of the young guys who get involved with gangs all over the world i mean can we really blame them? It seems we blind ourselves to reality to fit to our own fantasy of a perfect world when it’s not. Am i condoning their activity? Definitely not! But i am saying however that if maybe we all took a little time to actually care about people genuinely and not because of what we get in return then maybe some of it can be prevented…I have more thoughts on the gangs too but ill save it for a later date like maybe the next entry. For now ill let this saturate through your mind….
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