Definition of a friend

It seems like lately i have been having a struggle one that is fairly simple yet too complex and yet on the same token not as noticable but very much "up in your face" what is my problem you ask? Well friendship. Yeah i know it seems almost trivial and just a little childish but PLEASE listen (or read) the entire argumenet. I know it has been quite the time since i have last updated and sure i can say it is bacause i was uber busy (which i WAS) but that isnt the only thing honestly. In the time i have been gone i have not only turned 18 but i have graduated from high school, found out cant live on campus anymore and would be startin in the fall, chopped off my hair because i got it twisted up to start dreadlocks AND found that i have no true understanding of a friend....at least not in the eyes of God.
Graduating from high school, i knew would be a big milestone in my life and trust im so happy to have made it and God blessing me to graduate with flying colors but in the process as with many transitions i have lost many friends,frinossciates and even associates who i thought could be more. I just don't understand it anymore. Sometimes i feel as if i have been overly betrayed but then im reminded of Jesus and his time on Earth with the Disciples who he knew were backstabbers, liars, thiefs, and just not the best crowd to hang around regardless. Even Judas the one who betrayed him with a kiss. I find it so keen that even though he knew this he still called him "friend" and a brother of his. I mean people this is THE SON OF GOD WHO KNEW ALREADY WHAT WOULD HAPPEN.....and yet he still had compassion, love, and mercy on him. You see it wasnt that Jesus was lookin for perfection or something but more over he was surrounded by those least likely of being considered "firends" of Christ but he still showed them every ounce of love he had in him. The problem i face now days is the false representation of a "friend" in our society, i mean look at facebook, myspace, youtube, and even blogs the people who add you (and you accept) are called what? FRIENDS and on twitter "followers" another close meaning of friend and in all this we get so wrapped (or i get) up in the count of people you have and the numbers saved in your phone and forget to realize that none of that will firstly EVER compare to the Lord and savior as our friend but also we can never really understand what it is to have a friend until we know what is like to be a friend.
Over the years, grant it i have lost many friends when we drifted apart for various reasons and some who went cold turkey but the main thing that i am learning as God reveals is that when we love people regardless of whether we call them friend or even enemy that greatest friend we have is in Jesus himself and God and all other relationships are divinely appointed by him. I assure you this is nothing slight of an "easy" lesson to learn or understand fully but with time and maybe even some tears he reveals his self EVERY time by and by. Ad in him i have the greatest friendship that i have ever had and its one that will never end. He strangthens my friendships today that are meant and breaks the one who are not connected to my destiny and calling but i know a man, a friend, best friend, father, and God who knows all sees all and cares for me most of all....other than that there is no true definition lest i have it firstly in him and trust him to handle the rest, I find that a true blessing of a friendship with God.
Hannah Marie ♥

Take mi issues

Hola everyone!
I pray that everyone has been doing good out there in the cyber world. I know what your thinking, and yes it has been quite sometime since i last wrote. School (Which is coming to a rapid end) has been kicking my butt, thankfully though i had a recent break (Thank God for Spring Break) so i am currently at home, pero estoy enfermo :( pero i know the healer! So by his stripes i am healed. Today i went to church and to be honest i felt so out of it like i was there but then again not there, but i knew i needed to be at church. When i woke up and realized i was feeling worse than when i laid down to sleep i felt almost like the women with the issue of blood might have felt. I know it seems so dramatic that i would compare my insignificant sickness to such a thing as her but go along con mi aqui. You see this women had reached her nadir or her lowest of lows. She had been to doctor after docter and done remedies her age and much older she had tried any and everything she could to get the bleeding to cease, pero it did not. Some how this women who had reached her breaking point heard that the savior was coming to her town and though she may have been scared of how people would react she took a big leap of faith and said that if she could JUST touch the hem of his garment she knew she could be healed. What if we truly had faith like that? Well in my opinion many of us are just like her! Pero ill relate this to me; This morning i felt so horrible my nose stuffy and runny (Not beautiful WHAT SO EVER) and my throat scratchy, sore, and swollen. But something in me felt like if i could JUST get to the church and just get into the presence of God i would experience healing. See so often we run to that doctor who we studied countless years and in the end got a piece of paper that we feel validates him to be a healer and all but what if we went to the REAL healer! The one who paid for your bill when he was beaten by Roman guards. He said that by his stripes we were healed, did he not? I find the irony that for myself i was feeling a little over zealous and declared this morning i didnt need any medicine that i would be ok but as soon as i got home and my mom offered me claritan i became so trusting of this man made element. Ahora, dont get me wrong it is good to do what you have to do but remember you know the ultimate one. He not only can heal, he delivers, sets the captive free, gives peace in the storm, calms our spirit in the time of confusion and he NEVER leaves us nor forsakes us. His power is limitless and his ways are far beyond what we can ever seem to imagine. A lot lately i have been feeling as if God has been pressing this one thought setting my way; "Have a child like faith"It seems so odd but have you ever noticed children the willingness to believe and just have faith when it seems impossible. Today even regardless of my sickness i want to choose to have the child like faith that even the women with the issue of blood had to believe that my God is bigger than ANYTHING that i could ever come into contact with, and his might is far beyond the understanding that i will ever have. Let's get truly desperate, let's have the kind of fire we once had when we first fell in love with Jesus we reach for things of this world so much but push come the shove we never really reach back for his embrace, but today i came in agreement with who ever is reading this and believe this is for them as well that we will reach back for God, have the desperation we once had and be stronger than ever before and that we would have that child like faith once again. May God richly bless and praying.

No Temas

No Temas! (or in english; no fear)
It seems recently fear has become a primary focus forme, why you may ask? Well simple, in order for me (or anyone for tat matter) we have to get past ourselves/fears and realize who it is that holds our hand regardless of what we see before us at the present time or what has held us back in the past. In Deuteronomy 31:6 it says; "Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you." (NKJV).In order for God to truly use us it may require for us to leave the comfort of everyday life. It seems at times that it becomes so much of reality that the mere thought of leaving it or mixing it up nearly enrages us or sets us on a huge fear roller-coaster. In reality God knew that as his creations we have these times (hints why he placed in his word for us to fear not for he is with us about 365 times; enough for each day of the year). It amazes me just how often I, myself, have missed out on oppurtunities merely because i was too afraid (or as i claimed; too shy). Had God wanted us to live in hear maybe he would have made us all turtles, so when the going gets tough we go into our little shells and forget that there is a world out there besides us alone. Instead why don't we give God an actual chance to be everything his word has promised us he would be, including our strongtower and our comfort in the midst of the storm (or fear). We can't expect to have a testimony lest we actually go through the fire to come out as gold. Yes; this could very well mean being embarressed, or looked at oddly but at the end of the day and end of our lives which would give us more comfort knowing? The fact that we stood up for God and did the things he called us to do; or the fact that we sat their and did nothing because we were too scared, shy, not enough, self-concious, etc.? Or rather, which do you think would be more pleasing to God? Why don't we claim the promises like in Joshua 1:3-5; "I will give you every place where you set your foot, as I promised Moses. Your territory will extend from the desert to Lebanon, and from the great river, the Euphrates—all the Hittite country—to the Great Sea on the west.No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you." He said he would never LEAVE us nor FORSAKE us and enlarge our territory,what more of a reassurance do we really need? The promise is there, we just need to fulfill our part and not let go of his hand. NO TEMAS!!!
Dios los Bendigas
Hannah Marie

What is Sacrifice

Often when we think of sacrifice we think of to give up somethig, most of the time when we "sacrifice" we try to do so effortlessly but what about the times it should be difficult. You see when God ask us t sacrifice he doesnt always mean the two bucks we have edge within our purse or to not watch TV but what if he asked us to give up or do something that seems completely unachievable (at least in our eyes) what if God asked us to give $200.00 to the missions field work and we barely have $20.00 to our name at the present times. Or if we love TV to give it up for a month or even a week (for some that is cruel and unusual punishment!) But it amazes me the more he aks me to pick up my cross and follow him the more sacrifices in the natural we seem to make in response. And let me testify :IT IS HARD" Upon giving up certain indulgences everyone seems to have the best offers (dinner, movies, TV marathons, FB invites and such) but the question I have often had to ask myself in the midst of it all is who am i truly seeking: God or man?
A lot of the times we find it so easy to ask God to bless us in any way he can but when it comes time to sacrifice or lay down our Earthly vessels we get a little twitch footedand uncomfortable all because we can satisfy our flesh. Now tobe quite frank sometimes what he asks us to give up may not be something that you can just merely put down for a week or a month then pressume duties when we are done but rather something we must leave indefinitly. When we say we have given our lives over to Christ then for all intensive purpose we are no longer our own anyway so why do we try to fight so HARD to stay one with the world? This world has nothing for us right? Well then lets pick up our cross and actually follow Christ. We may struggle at times but when we dilligently sek him that is when he can step in and make a way in any and all situations. People may not understand but just knowing that God sits high and looks low or in many cases comes right down to be right by our side he is big enough and capable of placing all of our life in his hands, we have no real reason to fear or to not sacrifice and go seekig God with everything in us. What are you willing to give up for God?
God Bless

JUST PLEASE

PRAY FOR HAITI AND ALL CARIBBEAN ISLANDS (RD,CUBA, JAMAICA,etc.)
PLEASE JUST PRAY...emotionally im weak but i know God is stronger than anything

My Spirit is willing but....my mouth wont speak by Hannah Langhorn (en espanol pa mi espanol amigos!!!) As best as i could lo siento

Mi espíritu está dispuesto, pero mi boca no hablará por Hannah Langhorn
Me siento en silencio, pensando en lo que debería haber sido previamente dicho.
Lamentando que el testimonio no se dice. He hecho una promesa a usted Dios a compartir sus buenas noticias,
Sin embargo, me parece espantoso, si alguien se detiene a mirar.
¿Cómo audacia tardó mucho para que Jesús vendrá a esta tierra?
¿Cuánto amor no se necesita ver ni siquiera una fracción de mi valor? Sin embargo, aquí me siento y decir a través de los labios cerrados y la lengua mordida, "Soy un hijo de Dios y en relación con el hijo unigénito."
¿Cuánta sangre se necesita para lavar mis pecados y ser limpio? Y cuánto más tengo que reponer la corriente? ¿Por qué no puedo hablar siempre de este hombre que me amaba más allá de mi propia lamenta.
El pasado que me persigue sueños nocturnos y me acarició cada pensamiento. Sin embargo, aquí estoy sentado y atado en el miedo más miedo a continuación, lo que pienso.
Teniendo en cuenta que no estoy desobedecer a Dios y es mucho peor que lo será. Sin embargo, aquí me siento satisfecho con los brazos cruzados cuando yo me quedo y nunca alcanzan para más justo decir que como un juego.
Usted anhela estar cerca de mí y me empujan lejos, así que Bob y Sally se quedará mi amigo porque me niego a molestar. ....... Sin embargo, aquí me siento sin pensar que esto es lo que me llamó para, dolor en el precio que usted, perdonó mis pecados y mi llamado "amor" por el Señor.
¿Cuántas veces usted dice en su palabra "Está bien, no el miedo"? 365 veces suficiente para que cada día en un año.
¿Y cuántas veces me has dicho a recoger a la cruz y seguirlo?
Pero por las palabras de otros, nunca veo a través de la acción.
Oh, sí voy a culpar a los que en el tiempo, ves que no tienes suficiente, te das cuenta?
Bueno, usted dijo que la carrera no se dio a la rápida, pero la que el insistió. Y el tiempo es de la esencia otra razón para darse prisa para mostrar todo el mundo el que más amaba.
Sin embargo, aquí me siento y estoy bien despierto para dormir, porque si abro la boca se puede decir que mi palabra es algo que realmente mantener.
Sin embargo, aquí me siento aturdido y de todo el mundo. Causa mientras yo soy salvo y lejos de los peligros manera, que se preocupa por todo el resto del mundo?

My Spirit is willing but....my mouth wont speak by Hannah Langhorn

I apologize for my prolonged absence and truly it is far from my intent however i have been extremely busy and sadly enough it hasn't slowed down but i assume this is also what i prayed for jaja! So even though i can't make up for lost time i still apologize! Here is a poem i wrote today (1/8/10) that is showing how I have dealt with evangelism and just my walk with Christ but the point it is showing is how selfish this really is and how we are literally LYING and i hope it is something that will prick your heart i know it came from the mind and heart of God because i too was convicted. I pray it will bless and after midterms ill be updating more! God bless :)

My spirit is willing but my mouth won't speak by Hannah Langhorn
I sit quietly, thinking what should have previously been said.
Regretting the testimony i left unsaid. I made a promise to you God to share your good news,
Yet I find it frightening if someone will stop and stare.
How much Boldness did it take for Jesus to come to this Earth?
How much love did he need to see even a fraction of my worth? Yet here i sit and say through shut lips and bitten tongue, "I'm a child of God and related to the only begotten son."
How much blood did it take to wash my sins and be clean? And how much more do i need to replenish the stream? Why can't i ever talk about this man who loved me beyond my own regrets.
The past that haunted me nightly dreams and caressed my every thought. Yet here i sit and bound in fear more afraid then what i think.
Not considering I am disobeying God and how much worse that will be. Yet here I sit with folded arms complacent where I stay and never reach for more just say it as a game.
You yearn to be near me and I push you away, so Bob and Sally will stay my friend because I refuse to bother. Yet.......here I sit never thinking this is what you called me for, the price you pain, my sins forgave and my so-called "love" for the Lord.
How many times did you say in your word "It's alright don't fear"? 365 times enough for each day in a year.
And how many times have you told me to pick up the cross and follow you?
But because of others words I never see the action through.
Oh yes I'll blame the it on the time, you see i never have enough, you see?
Well, you said the race was not given to the swift but the one the pressed on. And time is of the essence another reason to make haste to show all around the world the one who loved the most.
Yet here I sit and I'm wide awake sleeping because if i open my mouth it may mean my word is something i actually keep.
Yet here I sit and dazed of all the world. Cause as long as I'm saved and out of harms way, who cares about all the rest of the world?

(Thank you so much for reading and i pray you will just let God speak to you and remember there is a dying world out there and God has given us the tools, strength, courage, any and everything we need he has given.... Why not take that opportunity to take back indefinitely what the enemy has stolen? WE ARE AN ARMY!!! THEY SEE DRY BONES BUT WE SEE AN ARMY!!! Let it Rise and God's name be proclaimed amongst the EARTH! God bless and much love and prayers) Hannah Marie <3