My Spirit is willing but....my mouth wont speak by Hannah Langhorn

I apologize for my prolonged absence and truly it is far from my intent however i have been extremely busy and sadly enough it hasn't slowed down but i assume this is also what i prayed for jaja! So even though i can't make up for lost time i still apologize! Here is a poem i wrote today (1/8/10) that is showing how I have dealt with evangelism and just my walk with Christ but the point it is showing is how selfish this really is and how we are literally LYING and i hope it is something that will prick your heart i know it came from the mind and heart of God because i too was convicted. I pray it will bless and after midterms ill be updating more! God bless :)

My spirit is willing but my mouth won't speak by Hannah Langhorn
I sit quietly, thinking what should have previously been said.
Regretting the testimony i left unsaid. I made a promise to you God to share your good news,
Yet I find it frightening if someone will stop and stare.
How much Boldness did it take for Jesus to come to this Earth?
How much love did he need to see even a fraction of my worth? Yet here i sit and say through shut lips and bitten tongue, "I'm a child of God and related to the only begotten son."
How much blood did it take to wash my sins and be clean? And how much more do i need to replenish the stream? Why can't i ever talk about this man who loved me beyond my own regrets.
The past that haunted me nightly dreams and caressed my every thought. Yet here i sit and bound in fear more afraid then what i think.
Not considering I am disobeying God and how much worse that will be. Yet here I sit with folded arms complacent where I stay and never reach for more just say it as a game.
You yearn to be near me and I push you away, so Bob and Sally will stay my friend because I refuse to bother. Yet.......here I sit never thinking this is what you called me for, the price you pain, my sins forgave and my so-called "love" for the Lord.
How many times did you say in your word "It's alright don't fear"? 365 times enough for each day in a year.
And how many times have you told me to pick up the cross and follow you?
But because of others words I never see the action through.
Oh yes I'll blame the it on the time, you see i never have enough, you see?
Well, you said the race was not given to the swift but the one the pressed on. And time is of the essence another reason to make haste to show all around the world the one who loved the most.
Yet here I sit and I'm wide awake sleeping because if i open my mouth it may mean my word is something i actually keep.
Yet here I sit and dazed of all the world. Cause as long as I'm saved and out of harms way, who cares about all the rest of the world?

(Thank you so much for reading and i pray you will just let God speak to you and remember there is a dying world out there and God has given us the tools, strength, courage, any and everything we need he has given.... Why not take that opportunity to take back indefinitely what the enemy has stolen? WE ARE AN ARMY!!! THEY SEE DRY BONES BUT WE SEE AN ARMY!!! Let it Rise and God's name be proclaimed amongst the EARTH! God bless and much love and prayers) Hannah Marie <3